This is not good. I am very, very unwell. I guess this is what comes from night after night of sub-6 hours of sleep and constant psych report writing with no down down. I have neglected my health, and so my health is neglecting me. My throat is swollen and burning, my nose is running, my head is aching and foggy, my sinuses are full, and everything sounds fuzzy. Finally, a vacation is coming to me, and now this. I have 7 car hours planned for Thursday, many hours of flying planned for Friday, and social plans out the wazoo planned in San Fran for Saturday. Finally, I have some fun lined up, and it’s not really working out.
There’s still so much to do before I go: packing, Xmas gift wrapping and mailing, not to mention the rest of these psych reports I have to get done in the next day. Why does it take me so damn long to write them. Yes, I’m a perfectionist, but even when I squelch those perfectionistic impulses, it takes me forever. I spent 7 hours on one on Sunday, and I’d already put in two hour on it before that day, and I’m still not done! Why? I want to get it right, and these test interpretations and diagnostic decisions require different criteria than what I’m used to.
Today is my last day during this rotation at my minor. I can’t really not go. I hate this, but I think I’m going to have to go in for a few hours and make a good faith appearance. I have really enjoyed this placement, and I don’t want to just bail on the last day. It doesn’t seem right. Man, I’m glad the case that was lined up for today had to be rescheduled. I don’t think I could handle a day of assessment in this condition.
